When Did I Get So Old?

Posted by ZenMom Wednesday, January 13, 2010



Its only Wednesday and I'm already beat.  I think I've tracked more miles in my car over the last few days than all of last year combined.

First, we have yet another bug making its way through the house.  Here I was so looking forward to Monday, and I ended up with three kids home sick.  In between answering pleas for ginger ale and chicken soup I had to drive my oldest all over the place.  So much for getting anything accomplished.

Yesterday was met with trips to the doctor, the dentist, pick up, drop off, and again I had the privilege of being my teenager's personal chauffeur.  You see, next year, she'll be starting high school, and it seems like we've toured just about every one in the state in an attempt to find the right match.

Today, is my day of rest.  In theory at least.  I had a handyman to supervise, food shopping to do -- why I even went on a run (my second day of #Couchto5K and already I'm dragging).  There was a little relaxation time thrown in, and for that I am very, very grateful.  I'd better be, it has to last me a whole week.

On the flip side, all that alone time always seems to lend itself to that pesky thinking stuff.  And today, my mind kept going to one simple fact.

I'll have a kid in HIGH SCHOOL next year!

Yikes.

Or more appropriately, WTF!

It seems like just yesterday I was picking her up from preschool and coordinating princess-themed playdates with her little friends.  Or helping out at the class parties in grade school.  (Funny, I never thought I'd say this, but I really miss those little parties).  I even remember driving her home from her first middle school social.  And I thought she was old then.

But now....

She's almost as tall as I am.  She certainly has more attitude.  And did I happen to mention she'll be in high school?  HIGH SCHOOL.


This scares me on so many levels.

There's school itself.  Have you been in your local high school lately?  Its downright frightening.  I've found out that Goth is passe (I think someone forgot to tell the ten or so I saw though) and Emo's are bizarre.  Of course, peppered in the crowd are the jocks and the popular types too.

Then there's the whole social scene.  Late nights, dating, parties with drinking or drugs.  Oh crap.  I'm so not ready for this.

And the cruelest twist of nature?  Next year I'll have one in high school, one in preschool, plus the two in middle school.

This keeps getting worse by the minute.  I think its time for me to stop typing now -- I'm starting to hyperventilate.


Trying to Keep Calm (but failing miserably),


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11 comments

  1. Amie Says:
  2. I have been asking myself the same question, How did this whole old business sneak up on me? Ah well, I guess it is better than the alternative.

     
  3. Susan Fobes Says:
  4. You know those pesky birthdays come so regulary now... LOL! Good luck with the high school thing, and you are not old!

     
  5. Janie B Says:
  6. You've got a long way to go to catch up with me. Both of mine are in their 30s! Talk about flying time!

     
  7. You are not old, but you do sound like a superstar mom. I can't even imagine having a kid in high school and preschool at the same time. Just the preschool part is exhausting and I don't have to deal with all the hormones and emotional baggage of the teen years. Yet. I was horrible as a teenager. I remember being pissed off at the whole world. I'm so scared about facing that part with my own children. They are still in the phase where they think I am the bee's knees so I have time. But not long. Everything goes so quickly now that I am a mother. I feel like time is moving so fast I can barely keep up. I admire you with four children! It must be fun to have a big family. Glad to have you back! I missed your posts.

     
  8. Michele Says:
  9. Oh wow.. High School.
    that is a scary thought indeed!!

    Breathe, mom, Breathe.
    You sound like an amazing mother, I have a feeling your kids will get through it all with flying colours!! ;)

     
  10. Um, you just made ME want to hyperventilate just thinking about my kids going to high school - even if that IS a ways away. B/c with the ways things are going that will be in the blink of an eye!

     
  11. Amanda Says:
  12. You mean they get bigger? And go to high school? And sneak around? And...

    I can't even think about it.

     
  13. I just want to send both of mine to college next year...they are driving me nuts!

     
  14. Noelle Says:
  15. i'm in the same boat...next year i will have one in high school and one in pre-school. and that's not counting my oldest...he turned 21 last summer. that was a little hard to swallow.

     
  16. kys Says:
  17. I'm sure your preschooler keeps you young. :)

     
  18. Aw, the first one's always the hardest. My 2 oldest are in college now; that's Really hard because they're GONE.
    My youngest is in HS and still seems so young to me now. I savor each day.
    I so get how you feel. It'll be okay.....

     

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